Digital-Hugs

Life has been a real bitch to me for a while now. My suicide attempts have reached 4. And two have just been this week. I don't know. I guess life is ebbing away at my sanity, possibly. It's nobody's fault but mine, I guess. It's okay though. I'm probably not going to die, But I'm sure I won't live long. I just downed pills for the second time this week. I'll be fine.

I just don't know what to do anymore. One of my friends got really close to killing themselves and it would've resulted in a domino effect of suicides, including my own. One would kill themselves out of guilt, another of the loss of their lover, the first to topple would've done it because life is pure pain, and mine, mine would just be out of an intense psychosis that arose earlier because I was afraid of losing my best friend twice. But her friends were reasons to stay, she still wants to go, but she doesn't want anyone else to go. And if that's not really enough of a reason to see my life is not really going so well, I have to go to a ps

Yeah, so, coming back didn't exactly work. I mean if I would've on my other account it would've, but I guess I lost so many follower- WATCHERS. Watchers. Tumblrhastakenovermymiiind. And I kinda need to post new art, but I kinda have to either fingery-paint it on my iPad or take a picture of my traditional, which no offense to it, but it sucks. But I kinda need to get back to coming on here every day or every other day because I abandoned a bunch of friends on dA and I kiiiinda need to not do that... But yeah though, if you guys really want, my contact info isn't top secret, just ask. I've got a Skype, a Tumblr, a cell (butmostofthetimeitsoffo